i'm scared... the 'C' Word
Posted 04 September 2009 - 01:06 PM
5 more hours today.. tuesday i get to get a port a cath in my chest cause my veins are not great for sticking needles then i get a break till 21st. we see how that goes..
Posted 04 September 2009 - 01:16 PM
Posted 10 September 2009 - 12:47 PM
can i catch a break?
Posted 11 September 2009 - 12:11 AM
Victory-a matter of staying power.
Elbert Hubbard, editor
He that can have patience can have what he will.
Benjamin Franklin, printer, statesman, inventor
The two most powerful warriors are patience and time.
Leo Tolstoy, author
Kites rise highest against the wind, not with it.
Winston Churchill, British prime minister
wishing you strength and peace as you work on healing your body.
Posted 19 September 2009 - 10:58 PM
my hair has been falling our already. its almost 3 weeks since my first chemo treatment. I have very thick hair to my shoulders so every time i brush it, it just comes out. Its to the point its everywhere so my b/f is coming to hosp tomorrow with his razor to just shave it. I guess it makes me feel litle more in control doing it that way and then the bald spots arent so bad. I also getting my own painless and free brazalian cut down there. Thats the only two spots i'm loosing hair thus far. I'm going to go with the scarfs.
I just want to go home. My b/f moved most of our stuff into our new place and i have not even seen it yet or been able to help do anything!
I'm having some rough days too i think i really just need to get out of here. I'm trying to hold as strong as i can.
Thanks again all!!!!!!!!
Posted 20 September 2009 - 02:38 PM
Posted 22 September 2009 - 12:34 PM
It's a pain, but it will nourish you..and that's what your body needs.
Stay strong and positive.
Love and Light to you.
Posted 02 October 2009 - 02:20 PM
Emotionally its been hard... i was crying ALOT.. i was going to go back on depression meds i been on in the past but they clash with the nausea meds.. so i guess i have to pick my poision but am doing a little emotionally too..
i worry about my b/f cause he has to take care of me... he son half the week and work but we talk about it alot and i wont be like this forever.
the worst thing is my sex drive is barely there.. i'm to nausea to feel like doing that.. and to exhausted to do to much.. so lets just say we haven't done that in a while.. between the surgery and not being able to have it for weeks then starting into chemo its been very few and far in between... He says it doesn't bother him and he understands and i believe him but i can't help but feel bad about it..
thats just me venting
thanks for listening and everything! Hope you all are well!