have we mentioned lately how MUCH cancer SUCKS!?!?!?!??!?!!?!??!?!?!?!!
Posted 22 June 2012 - 01:13 PM
ok, enough of that coughing! and keep that blood in your veins where it belongs! just saying.
i hope you have a beautiful day, and a splendid weekend!
and i hope your countdown to the vibes is getting you excited! i know it's got me all hyped up!!
see ya next month! love ya!
Posted 23 June 2012 - 07:25 AM
doing okay, had a tough vet appt after the pulmonologist yesterday. for my part, all is fine, no embolism, i have things to watch for and instructions and i'm told i did the right thing in calling right away. for Tiger's part, i have another cat with heart disease!!! i'm so sad and frustrated by this i can't even BEGIN to tell you how much. and the pain from the taxol started at 1:38pm yesterday with muscle spasms in my right hip - that was weird to actually watch let me tell ya - which is in the process of really settling in now, though i haven't taken more than advil for it as yet. i was so beat after the vet appt that i fell asleep around 6 last night and just woke up around 2:30am since it doesn't matter at all what hours i keep.
cancer sucks. cardiomyopathy sucks. i'm sad.
Posted 23 June 2012 - 09:00 PM
i bring only the bare minimum to vibes and instead of bringing both walking sticks for you to pick one, do you mind if i channel you and pick one?
i think i will send you pics via phone! i will send you multiple shots of "one" then "two"
i want you to see the self-portraits and embellishments on each one
i want you to have the one that you will love more!
look over the pics and then tell me if you want me to bring "one" or "two"
i will be writing myself a HUGE "do not forget nancys walking stick" on my ticket envelope
cant wait for you to have it and love it
Posted 23 June 2012 - 10:23 PM
one is slightly less tall (by 5 inches) and has a natural curve and its a bit stockier
the straight up one has the self-portrait in the middle and he has a scuffed nose that happened during production
jack laughed when he pointed that out and said "well, i figure since i aint perfect, then why should my portrait be?! and left it on"
the other one has the portrait on the lower third
both have leather-wrapped feather clusters as embellishments but the tall slim one has a strap for hanging, as well
i know which one *I* would pick for you...
gonna send you some pics in a bit, if you want
Posted 23 June 2012 - 10:36 PM
made an executive decision
i am going with my instinct
i will bring it with me (i just wrote "nancys stick" in black sharpie on my ticket envelope)
wish i had just remembered for mtn jam when you could have chosen it on your own
deep down i KNOW this is the one you would like
now its yours
as long as you use it you will have the protective eye of jack looking over you ((((rocky mtn dreamer))))
Posted 26 June 2012 - 04:48 PM
My grand father was just diagnosed with an in operable brain tumor last week they gave him 2 weeks to 2 months to live. He is coming home to his house to live out his days with friends and family I am devastated and not to mention my dad died of a brain tumor when I was 12 WTF
Posted 26 June 2012 - 07:20 PM
Sending good vibes and strength to Nancy and Mr. Pat.
A very close friend of mine's daughter(7) had a cancerous brain tumor removed a week ago. Poor girl went from what they thought was a sinus cold to a tumor.
Much love to all the cancer survivors and battlers out there. Stay strong!!
Posted 26 June 2012 - 09:04 PM
doing okay, have a bit of joint pain still and HR met me downstairs which i appreciated. i only kinda did it wrong, not totally. i can stay out of work through radiation which will make my drs VERY happy, if i had any doubts about that i don't after seeing them today i can tell you, and i still have a job waiting for me when i get back. not positive if it will be the same job or not - they probably don't know either at this point because things are changing so crazy fast there this year - but job and benefits will stay in place. whew!!!
Posted 27 June 2012 - 11:37 AM
final piece of the puzzle is on 7/5 when i meet with the radiologist. they originally set up the first appt during a treatment and i said 'no. i'm not even conscious during a treatment, no.'. i wouldn't be able to talk or ask questions and i don't think that's right so i said no. the nurse was a little pissy about it at first but i got my rescheduled appt so who cares! anyway, i look forward to getting the set up appts made and to finding out when we start, exactly. 'cause mostly, then i'll know when i'm going to be done.
Posted 28 June 2012 - 02:02 PM
a job, not necessarily my old job. which would be fine if that's what works out.
i will get to go to vibes though assuming i feel okay.
you're gonna be fine! you're gonna feel like dancin'! you're gonna be soooo anxious to get there!
hope you're well, and that all works out with your appt scheduling. keeping you in our thoughts and prayers alll the time!
Posted 01 July 2012 - 12:35 PM
doing okay.... had a quiet week, went to a cookout at work on friday for a little while and then was sick from it yesterday. and it was hot and i forgot to turn on the a/c and my feet swelled up so i didn't do a thing, just watched silly movies all day. today i'm going to try to do better and drink more water and am watching the house temp already. should have had a fan in the window overnight, oh well.
my knees and hips are still achy but i haven't been taking anything for it the last few days. the ache lasts right through now and i get hit again on tuesday - last one!! - so it's going to be some weeks before i get rid of it. frustrating, that the side effects, all of them, last for so many weeks.
turns out this whole throat thing that feels like swollen glands except too far down the neck to be swollen glands is also a side effect. i never put the two together when the survivors at work kept asking me about the "hard to swallow" side effect until the other day when my neck was bothering me a lot and i thought to myself, 'gee, it's making it really hard to swallowtoday'. *gasp!* an epiphany! it was kinda funny, i admit. but the drs never put that together? or did and never said anything?? frustrating.
my hands and feet are realllllllly numb. it is sooo weird, to walk on feet you can't feel. it looks like i might lose some fingernails in addition to, for sure now, the two big toenails. might yet lose more toenails too, some of them look like they are starting to turn, too. frustrating to watch it happen, not be able to stop and and also not be able to rush it and just get it over with, either. i'm trying out all kinds of different bandages to protect the toenail, trying to figure out what works best. might try the ice boots in addition to the mitts, at the last treatment
and i have to admit that i'm frustrated over the pool, i need 20 seconds worth of help for something i 'should' be able to do, have done many many times, and this year i just. can't. get. it, my hands aren't strong enough. the pool's not even running and i hate asking someone to come over to help when i can't offer them a nice swim, too. maybe i'll call my brother, he might be coming to do the lawn anyway.... or my friend pete. ha. i could call pete. he lives very close by and he and his wife would love to know they helped. they wouldn't even care about the swim because they live practically next door to the public beach near me. good plan.
anyway, i feel better than i did yesterday and hope to get something accomplished around the house and vibes pile. i'm going to drink lots of water/juice today, and will have as good a day as i possibly can. yay me.