Examples of The Insanity of Alcoholic Thinking
Posted 04 November 2011 - 02:29 PM
the insanity of my alcoholic thinking was that you would leave me anyway but Jameson would always be with me. Destroying all and everybody around me.
i can relate to the farmer who comes up out of his tornado cellar to find Everything in rubble.
Posted 04 November 2011 - 02:33 PM
the insanity is that everthing i said i would never become or do i became! BAFFLING
Posted 08 November 2011 - 03:24 AM
Posted 11 November 2011 - 03:36 PM
He wouldnt fire me because he knew i would end up in a gutter ,but it amazes me that he didnt kick my ass a few times.
Posted 04 April 2012 - 04:36 PM
somewhere in the third song of the Who i said "fuck this ,they don't even serve beer" and walked out.
Posted 12 September 2012 - 10:48 PM
an exact example.. Knowing that i wouldnt stop until i was dead ,in jail ,in a hospital ,or in two cases passed out on the train tracks in stony brook i still would make the "INSANE" choice to pick up that first drink!!
woah.. woah.. now THAT is some serious insight
Posted 03 June 2013 - 04:03 PM
Turns out everyone wasnt drinking or acting that way when they were drinking. It was just me. Even though it wasnt intended my Fun was at the expense of others. Either there feelings or property or peace of mind and in some cases their personal safety.
I am working on this attitude adjustment. I strive for progress not perfection on this one
Posted 06 June 2013 - 03:14 PM
After a Massive day AND night of Mayhem started at West Meadow beach to my parents house (getting thrown out for being wasted but nowhere even close to being "Done") to The velvet lounge where i somehow started an all out bar brawl (i'm talkin chairs over the bar ,girls fightin dudes bottles flying everywhere) they escorted me through the kitchen and out the back so i wouldnt get arrested for anything i didnt actually do. Apparently some dudes girl was flirting with me and him and his four bros thought they could take me but what they didn't know was they were in one of "my" bars. So it just erupted into Mayhem.
After walking out the back and through the woods i remember nothing but saying "woo that was awesome and i need a nap."
Tap Tap Tap. I open my eyes without my glasses on and all i see is a shadow over me with a funny shaped hat and blue sky. I hear "are you ok?"
As i put my glasses on i start to hear a Humming and then i see its a train conductor. I now see the train forty feet behind him.
HERE is The Attitude. I answered him.. "Yeah ,are you alright!" With an attitude of hey I'm sleeping here. I got up and see i almost made it to the fairway of the golf course ,fifteen feet to my left.
HERE is the INSANITY. I kept drinking after that. And it happened TWICE more.
The insanity to keep drinking knowing that i could wake up on active train tracks or not wake up as the train is rolling over and through me.
Was i trying to kill myself? Maybe. All i know is fuck that! Im not going out like that!
Posted 07 June 2013 - 07:09 PM
Sorry to hijack the thread with silly memes.
We have been dealing with alcohol in its worst aspect. But we aren't a glum lot. If newcomers could see no joy or fun in our existence, they wouldn't want it. We absolutely insist on enjoying life. We try not to indulge in cynicism over the state of the nations, nor do we carry the world's troubles on our shoulders. When we see a man sinking into the mire that is alcoholism, we give him first aid and place what we have at his disposal. For his sake, we do recount and almost relive the horrors of our past. But those of us who have tried to shoulder the entire burden and troubles of others find we are soon overcome by them.
So we think cheerfulness and laughter make for usefulness. Outsiders are sometimes shocked when we burst into merriment over a seemingly tragic experience out of the past. But why shouldn't we laugh? We have recovered, and have been given the power to help others.
Alcoholics Anonymous, 4th edition, page 132