just wondering..I had to get honest and I'm not sure exactly when it is now...it's only a couple months after I came into the rooms the last time but it was nagging me that i still smoked *** for a little while...
hmmmm
do you know your exact sobriety date?
Started by
gbumps
, Feb 23 2009 02:41 PM
17 replies to this topic
#2
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Posted 23 February 2009 - 02:47 PM
January 27, 1990
I did "mj maintenance" for six weeks after my last drink & first meeting. Being buzzed in meetings sucked because I would sit there thinking "if I get up for another cookie, will they know?" They knew anyway.
I did "mj maintenance" for six weeks after my last drink & first meeting. Being buzzed in meetings sucked because I would sit there thinking "if I get up for another cookie, will they know?" They knew anyway.
#3
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Posted 23 February 2009 - 03:05 PM
yeah..it bothers me that I don't know the exact date..but that's most likely because I'm a self-centered sonofabitch. Everyone seems to know their date though..
I had a huge fear of getting honest with my supports (ego) and they basically responded by saying "so what, you're not that important.." lulz
did you change your date after you stopped puffing IASW?
I had a huge fear of getting honest with my supports (ego) and they basically responded by saying "so what, you're not that important.." lulz
did you change your date after you stopped puffing IASW?
#6
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Posted 23 February 2009 - 11:59 PM
08/02/08 , I will never forget that fuck up. That was the morning I decided to admit to my wife that I had a real problem and could not handle it myself. The fuck up was a hung over car crash early in the am. I haven't had any intoxicants or mind altering substances since. But, I still only have today.
#7
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Posted 25 February 2009 - 12:31 AM
i do not, as i am not sober, but my particular demon was crack, and i know its been over 5 years since i've touched it, even in a middlemanning to make some quick $ sense. I'm over that shit, and i'm over being addicted to H, although i couldn't tell you how long thats been. All i want to do now is cut down on booze and use everything else responsibly. Different strokes for different folks.
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Posted 25 February 2009 - 03:05 PM
I'm convinced that I am incapable of using ANYTHING responsible when it comes to drugs or alcohol..but that's just me...
Ideally someday thats my goal, with breaks for b-days, holidays etc, but with my lifestlye and circle of friends its just not realistic.
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Posted 25 February 2009 - 03:17 PM
Ideally someday thats my goal, with breaks for b-days, holidays etc, but with my lifestlye and circle of friends its just not realistic.
well, if you really want it bad enough it's realistic..for me it became a matter of life and death..
#12
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Posted 25 February 2009 - 03:42 PM
cool man..I wasn't suggesting you should necessarily do anything..just that you could if you wanted to. I can only speak for me. I drank when I hadn't planned on it and once I started I couldn't stop. Drugs just made me get desperate faster and I'm grateful for that. I wish you the best of luck...I've already quit the things that were killing me. I don't think beer in moderation, trips and mj will kill me.
#14
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Posted 26 February 2009 - 12:51 AM
Are you kidding? I'm not close minded, I'm jealous. If there were a pill I could take to let me drink, smoke, and trip responsibly I'd be all over it! Unfortunately I am unable to do that. Moderation does not satisfy me, so, for me, clean and sober is the only sane option.
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Posted 26 February 2009 - 02:05 PM
thanks.so many 12 steppers are so closed minded when it comes to ppl like me. Not you. Thanks.
at its core, the program i embrace is simple and personal.
There is a significant difference between a hard drinker and a real alcoholic..only you can make the distinction.
If you ever need to talk just pm me..
