Agreed. So my question from the start has been: What tips does anyone have for accessing the parts of your true self that many of us seem not able to access except (or to an extent or sometimes in some situations) only via substances?
The thing it seems you arent "getting" or accepting is that the drunk you, the witty fun guy who you arent when you are sober, is a different consciousness than the sober, awake, operating "you". I believe it is like two different personalities. No matter how funny I think you are, I cant try to "be" you...it wouldn't really work. I can only be me!
The answer was already given to you. PATIENCE is how you can adjust to this sober you. You may find, after living sober for awhile, that you WILL become more witty, fun, or whatever.
Personally, being drunk is not very fun for me. I get dizzy, heartburn, and will eventually puke if I exert myself when hammered. Plus, its incredibly expensive....I cant understand how people can go out and drip $40 at a bar....I cant even drink two beers at a sitting.
The fact that you really feel that certain qualities improve for you when your drunk is kind of hard to get my head around. Drinking depresses your central nervous system, bangs up your renal system, and messes with your guut. Also it cuts off oxygen to the brain. What you feel as enhancement is just inebriation. And also, it seems a dangerous thing to feel you need to be buzzed to enjoy anything more. That sounds like a road to disaster if you asked me.