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#1 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 01:49 PM

I certainly know how powerful the positive vibes are from this community, and I hope you won't mind my asking that you send some good thoughts out for our Pogo Puppy today. :heart:

 

She was scheduled to go in for surgery to have 2 skin cancer tumours removed, but in the past week, has developed some sort of mystery swelling on both sides of her mouth. Neither we nor the vet knows what it could be, so today they are performing a biopsy so we can make a plan for how to approach this.

 

We are hoping that the biopsy will shed some light on this so that we can make the decision that is right for her comfort, happiness, and quality of life. It has been heart-wrenching to look down the path to where we may have to make the call to say goodbye to our love, and the emotion of it all left us exhausted. It hurts so badly to see the physical body fail while the spirit and being remains so strong and true and vibrant.

 

We know that Pogo picks up on how we are feeling, so today we are choosing to be strong and positive and hope for the best prognosis, and we hope you will join us in that.

 

Thank you!

 

:heart: :heart: :heart: ((((((((Pogo Puppy!!!)))))))) :heart: :heart: :heart:

 

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#2 JBetty

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 01:53 PM

It hurts so badly to see the physical body fail while the spirit and being remains so strong and true and vibrant.

 

 

This is the worst.  :cry:

(((Pogo Puppy)))  :heart:



#3 In A Silent Way

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 01:55 PM

Oh noes! (((Pogo))) :heart:



#4 sums

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 01:58 PM

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#5 Tim the Beek

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 02:02 PM

<3 Puppy <3



#6 MeOmYo

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 02:02 PM

:heart:



#7 hippieskichick

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 02:41 PM

((((:cur:))))

 

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#8 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 02:42 PM

Thanks y'all - we are heading off to the vet now. I should be able to pick her back up again in a couple hours, and then we just have to wait for the results which takes a few days. In the meantime, we are going to make sure she gets to hike the woods, go swimming, and enjoy all of her favourite things just like usual.

 

Hope springs eternal, I have my hopes pinned to the results being negative as to anything invasive and harmful! :heart:



#9 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 07 May 2013 - 06:00 PM

Pogo was a champ as usual!

 

Now we wait for 3 -5 days for the results. Thanks for the vibes, all! :)



#10 nancykind

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Posted 09 May 2013 - 01:02 AM

lots of love, that is a great picture!   :heart:



#11 Karen

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Posted 09 May 2013 - 11:41 AM

(((Pogo)))   (((Lola and Tyler)))

 

Pogo is so unique, wonderful and just downright cute.     We're sending loads of love and healing vibes from our house to yours!

 

XO



#12 TEO

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Posted 09 May 2013 - 01:53 PM

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#13 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 09 May 2013 - 02:36 PM

Thanks y'all. I just know how much good thoughts can help, and we really do appreciate your sharing them! :heart:

After the biopsy, we were able to clean up the swollen area really well, and it looks better now. It's still a big mess, but we are keeping her on the antibiotics, preforming hot compresses 2X/day, and remaining positive that she will pull thru all of this. I will let you know the results once we have them.

 

Get well, Pogo Puppy! :heart:



#14 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 05:00 PM

Just got off the phone with our vet.

 

Pogo has lymphoma, and chemo is our best option for treatment, as it is a systemic disease. If we opt to go for the chemo, we should know whether it is making a difference within a matter of weeks. They can take care of it at the clinic, or we can go to a specialist that is 1.5 hours away. The procedure is the same whether at the specialist or our regular vet, so even tho our vet is not a specialist in chemo, I would expect that we would all be more comfortable remaining within their care.

 

I haven't done any research into this yet, and am awaiting an estimate for the procedure. There are usually not any heavy side-effects from the chemo, and life expectancy averages 13 months after recovery, altho being cancer, I don't expect much in the way of statistics, since it seems to react and respond differently in every individual.

 

The skin cancer tumours may very well be the same thing (they can't be certain without a biopsy, the aspirate came back as round cell tumours, with lymphoma suspected but not confirmed) and if so, would then respond to the chemo treatment and surgery would not be necessary.

 

I've never had a dog go thru chemo before. Pogo's quality of life will remain paramount to our decisions. Thanks to everyone for the good thoughts. It is all fairly early-stages, so the prognosis is as good as it can be, which is really all just a guessing game until she's a few weeks into the first cycle of treatment.



#15 JBetty

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 05:02 PM

Oh shit...  :heart:

 

(((Pogo Puppy)))



#16 vinandtonic

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 05:23 PM

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#17 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 06:34 PM

I should mention that lymphoma is the cancer that responds best to chemo, so I guess there is that as a good point.

 

They can do a test for the actual cell type that would give us a very clear picture of the prognosis - both types of cells respond to the chemo, but B cells respond better than T cells. The test is $400, which I think may be best allocated towards getting the chemo started to see how it all responds.

 

Ugh, why does all this health-related stuff have to be so fucking expensive?



#18 JBetty

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 06:35 PM

Welcome to America.   :rolleyes:



#19 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 06:48 PM

I do feel better for knowing WTF is going on now, at least. We can look into helping her get healthy. That's good.

She's also as happy, energetic, and fun-loving as ever - and I know that how a being *feels* goes a long way to helping them get better. :heart:

 

We'll be discussing our options and making a plan tonight.



#20 MeOmYo

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 06:52 PM

:heart:

 

pet treatments are a difficult thing for me.  growing up and working on farms, I saw life come and go often and sometimes within minutes.  Also, I saw many medical decisions that were based on finances rather than the quality of life of the animal.  "Do I put $1000 into this sick cow or put it down and go buy a healthy cow for $1000?"

 

I recently spent a little over $3k on a cruciate ligament tear in one leg on a 3 year old dog.  Before that leg was healed, the other side tore and required the same surgery.  At that point, I spoke to the vet and stated that I couldn't do that again and if there were other options.  If not, I would have to put the dog down.  That was a VERY difficult decision for me.  Fortunately, the vet offered to do the second surgery pro-bono.



#21 TEO

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 06:56 PM

I hear you MeOmYo, as I grew up with a similar philosophy.

 

(((Quality of life)))

 

Much love, light, healing & inner peace for Pogo and family.  :heart:



#22 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 10 May 2013 - 06:59 PM

pet treatments are a difficult thing for me.  growing up and working on farms, I saw life come and go often and sometimes within minutes.  Also, I saw many medical decisions that were based on finances rather than the quality of life of the animal.  "Do I put $1000 into this sick cow or put it down and go buy a healthy cow for $1000?"

 

I recently spent a little over $3k on a cruciate ligament tear in one leg on a 3 year old dog.  Before that leg was healed, the other side tore and required the same surgery.  At that point, I spoke to the vet and stated that I couldn't do that again and if there were other options.  If not, I would have to put the dog down.  That was a VERY difficult decision for me.  Fortunately, the vet offered to do the second surgery pro-bono.

 

We had the same discussion with our vet on Monday. It *is* difficult. I think the emotion needs to be removed at that point. Quality of life is what is guiding our decision, and what always will. :heart:

 

I can't keep an ill dog around just to fulfill my own needs. 

 

To the naked eye Pogo looks healthy, happy, and energetic (well, outside of some lumps, which should shrink with proper treatment.) Since all her personality and joy is still there, since she is not in pain, since it is just her physical body that needs help, then I will do everything in my power to help her. Once she feels poorly, is in pain, is no longer the Pogo Puppy we know... I think that will be the time to let her go. A little part of me already has. I think that is somehow helpful in feeling more determined about seeking out our options and approaching them with logic. I love her so much, but I will not ever ask her to hold on beyond what is comfortable.

 

Strangely calm right now. Sad, but calm. I am determined to do what is right for her best interests. :heart:



#23 Geminimoon

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Posted 13 May 2013 - 04:07 PM

I hope everything goes well.

Loki just cost us over 3k for his hospital stay. His next treatments will be close to the same.

It's hard and expensive but worth it.

#24 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 13 May 2013 - 04:20 PM

Thanks, GM - our estimate for Pogo's chemo is 4K. (ugh!) We don't have that amount lying around, but we will find a way to make it happen. We can always make more money, there will only ever be one Pogo Puppy.

 

I wish Loki healing vibes! :heart:



#25 Karen

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Posted 13 May 2013 - 04:38 PM

:heart:

 

(((Pogo)))



#26 Tim the Beek

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Posted 14 May 2013 - 02:49 PM

(((Pogo and her people)))



#27 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 14 May 2013 - 03:04 PM

Thanks all... Pogo will be starting her first round of chemo today at 3pm - if you have any positive energy to send at that time, please do!

I feel very confident about our vet. She re-arranged the clinic's schedule today to fit Pogo in.
All of us have Pogo's quality of life as the foremost indicator for how we will proceed. We had a frank discussion regarding the treatment and potential outcomes, both good and bad. Here's hoping for the good!

 

Go-go, Pogo Pup! :heart:

 


 



#28 Karen

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Posted 14 May 2013 - 03:08 PM

You got this Pogo!   :heart:

 

 

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#29 TEO

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Posted 14 May 2013 - 03:33 PM

Love & Light



#30 vinandtonic

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Posted 14 May 2013 - 05:14 PM

:heart: :heart:



#31 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 14 May 2013 - 08:57 PM

Going to pick Pogo up now... The vet says she had no complications or reations, but may be low on energy for 8 hours anywhere from 24 to 36 hours after the treatment. We are to keep an eye on her and report anything out of the ordinary, but the idealy  we should see the tumours' swelling start reducing by the weekend.

 

Thanks for your vibes all, I know that it has helped! :) :heart:

 

Now, time to go pick up the Pogo Puppy! :cur:



#32 tyedyedee

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Posted 16 May 2013 - 12:33 PM

get better cute pogo :heart:

 

((((pogos mom & dad)))) :heart:



#33 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 16 May 2013 - 01:27 PM

The tumours in Pogo's mouth have reduced in size significantly... Her first injection was L-asparagine, which is a very effective medication. The vet uses it first to kick-start the recovery process and get any swellings down as quickly as possible. I am still guarded about her recovery until we have had a few more sessions, but so far both Tyler and I (and Pogo for sure!) are elated with the results!

 

All your good vibes help so much, thank you for keeping us in your thoughts!

 

(((((((( :heart: Boardie Power!!! :heart: ))))))))



#34 JBetty

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Posted 16 May 2013 - 02:52 PM

Great news!   :clap:

 

Power to the Boardies, right on!     :jamguy:



#35 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 16 May 2013 - 05:07 PM

Looking and feeling much better this morning! :heart:

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#36 nancykind

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Posted 19 May 2013 - 04:45 AM

so sorry to hear but happy that you are seeing results.   such difficult decisions.   :heart:



#37 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 21 May 2013 - 08:18 PM

Pogo just had her second chemo treatment, this time with Vincristine. There are possible side-effects that we will be on the lookout for, and we have some medication to help with any nausea she may experience. Anything more serious will require a call to the vet. The previous injection of L-Asparaginase was incredibly effective - her lymphoma tumours are currently 1/3rd of their original size before the treatment! We hope that the protocol will continue to work with her system, and bring her into full remission. She is being a very good, brave, and well-behaved patient, and everyone at the clinic was very happy to see her looking healthier and more comfortable than she was the previous week. Go, go Pogo Pup!



#38 hippieskichick

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Posted 21 May 2013 - 08:24 PM

(((Pogo :cur: )))

 

<3 <3



#39 nancykind

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Posted 21 May 2013 - 11:30 PM

yay pogo!! :heart:



#40 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 21 May 2013 - 11:49 PM

Thanks for all your love and good vibes, boardie friends! :heart:



#41 Karen

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Posted 22 May 2013 - 02:52 AM

Yay Pogo!  :heart:



#42 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 13 June 2013 - 08:15 PM

Pogo's body has ceased responding to the current chemo protocol. Her lips have swollen up a bit again, and there are new lumps appearing on her body. The two ulcerated skin tumours are now the size of hockey pucks. It isn't pretty, altho she is still, and always will be, my Beauty Grrrl.

Our vet consulted with several oncologists, and we are starting a new protocol tomorrow at 3pm. We now suspect that the lymphoma is of the T-cell variety, which is resistant to the Wisconsin-Madison protocol. The new treatment involves the administration of Lomustine CCNU tablets (which we can administer ourselves) along with L-spar injections. It is a 5-cycle regimen with 3 weeks between each treatment, and the studies indicated that it has an 83% success rate with T-cell lymphoma. I think this new protocol will bring us all a bit of relief - not only time-wise, but emotionally, and financially as well. The L-spar is pretty expensive, but it is only administered the first 2 cycles, after that is it optional (no studies support it being needed more frequently than the first two sessions) and the CCNU is only $20 per tablet. Pogo's best response to the chemo treatment came with the L-spar, so we are hopeful that the lymphoma will respond just as well again. As always, there could be complications and/or reactions, but she weathered the L-spar easily the last time she had it, and hopefully the CCNU won't be too taxing on her system, either. We could have run more diagnostics which would have positively identified the cell structure of the skin tumours, but at this point, both Tyler and I felt that it doesn't really matter, and that the funds are better alotted towards treatment. These have been tough decisions, and tears have been shed over them, but with the guidance of our veterinary team, we feel we have made an informed and proper choice.

When I got into bed at dawn the first night at Mountain Jam, I was overwhelmed with emotion for Pogo's situation. Much of the weekend - what with it's songs, music, and themes on the joys of life and nature - brought about emotions regarding Pogo to the surface for both Tyler and I on numerous occasions. It was hard, but a little bit cleansing, too. I decided I needed to consciously start drinking in all the goodness that she is still here sharing space with us, rather than getting so upset about the inevitable. The inevitable is inevitable, with or without the cancer. I need to remain present, and enjoy the time that we still have.

So on this morning's walk, with Pogo bouncing along so happily, still loving life to the fullest, happy, energetic, and engaged, smiling in her fashion, and so thrilled to be out walking with me, I broke into the biggest smile. Whether or not she is aware of what is going on, (she's aware that she has lumps and bumps - she licks at them) she hasn't stopped getting enjoyment out of every moment she has, whether it's lounging in the sun, barking at the hikers crossing our property, chasing chippies, going out for our morning and evening constitutionals, or snuggling up for a cuddle. She loves it, is thankful for it, and fully in the moment of it all, so I am going to take my lead from her courage and bliss, and try my best to turn my back on the sorrow that will come regardless of how it all falls down. None of us lasts forever, but all of us have the opportunity to make the most of every minute that we are so blessed to share and experience.

It brings to mind the often-quoted saying "everything important in life I learned from my dog" - this may very well be the biggest and most important of all those lessons. :heart:
 
 


#43 nancykind

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Posted 15 June 2013 - 10:51 AM

hoping for the best possible result for all.   :heart:



#44 hippieskichick

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Posted 15 June 2013 - 11:04 AM

(((:cur:))) <3 <3



#45 tyedyedee

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Posted 15 June 2013 - 03:09 PM

:heart: pogo pup :heart:



#46 nancykind

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Posted 02 July 2013 - 08:39 PM

thinking of you all :heart: :heart:



#47 Lazy Lightning

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Posted 22 July 2013 - 05:08 PM

After a good, strong battle with this vile disease, Pogo has let us know that the time has come for us to say goodbye.

 

We are having our final day together today.

 

It's so hard, but it is the right thing to do, Her body is failing her now, and we don't want her to suffer.

 

We love her so much, our hearts are breaking.

 

Thank you for all your kind thoughts and energy these past few months. I can only hope that when she slips into the next stage of her journey, that she feels free, strong, and healthy, and always remembers our love.

 

Today is a difficult day, but the love is larger than the loss or the sorrow that is yet to come.

 

Thank you for 10 great years, little dog. :heart:



#48 JBetty

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Posted 22 July 2013 - 05:13 PM

Oh Lola - I'm so sorry.

I know how difficult this can be.   :heart:



#49 tyedyedee

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Posted 22 July 2013 - 05:23 PM

:cry:

pogo and lola and tyler :heart:



#50 Karen

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Posted 22 July 2013 - 05:27 PM

Sending you all much love and condolences.  Tis a sad day indeed :(

Pogo is such a wonderful doggie.  I am glad to have known her :heart: