I can't live like this anymore.
I won't.
I haven't ate in days.
It is freezing and I have no jacket.
It is raining, I'm wet and have no dry clothes.
I have no hope of finding work or a home.
I have lost all my friends.
I don't want to go on.
There is a bridge several miles from here and I am going to walk there and throw myself off.
Goodbye Boardies.
goodbye
Started by
Quinn The Eskimo
, Dec 26 2012 04:14 PM
119 replies to this topic
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 04:27 PM
Nobody gives a shit about me
Don't pretend like you do now because you think it will save me
This isn't true. Go look at the thread from the last time you were in this place...how much help and love was offered to you, which you refused to take.
No one here can save you. But you can save yourself, and have plenty of help doing it.
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 04:29 PM
I have done that. The hospital did more damage than good.
And if I had a place to stay or a way to feed myself i would.
I have been to shelters. Several of them. I have been beaten and robbed and I won't go back.and
I done struggling and going nowhere.
I am out
Have a good life.
And if I had a place to stay or a way to feed myself i would.
I have been to shelters. Several of them. I have been beaten and robbed and I won't go back.and
I done struggling and going nowhere.
I am out
Have a good life.
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 04:33 PM
If you go to a hospital today, you can always kill yourself another day.
If you kill yourself today, then there's no chance of a better life. And you have a chance, whether you can see that or not.
Plus, as I've said before, you will be hurting everyone who cares about you. While you may not give a shit about yourself anymore, I don't believe from what I know of you that you want to be responsible for the pain you'll create if you do this...
If you kill yourself today, then there's no chance of a better life. And you have a chance, whether you can see that or not.
Plus, as I've said before, you will be hurting everyone who cares about you. While you may not give a shit about yourself anymore, I don't believe from what I know of you that you want to be responsible for the pain you'll create if you do this...
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 04:37 PM
the help has been there and will continue to be there.
it has been your choice to not accept the help.
you've been offered clothing, jobs, food and places to stay
if anyone is helpless in your situation, it's the people who have offered help that you are unwilling to accept.
it has been your choice to not accept the help.
you've been offered clothing, jobs, food and places to stay
if anyone is helpless in your situation, it's the people who have offered help that you are unwilling to accept.
#20
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 04:39 PM
I can't live like this anymore.
I won't.
I haven't ate in days.
It is freezing and I have no jacket.
It is raining, I'm wet and have no dry clothes.
I have no hope of finding work or a home.
I have lost all my friends.
I don't want to go on.
There is a bridge several miles from here and I am going to walk there and throw myself off.
Goodbye Boardies.
Go find a Methodist church...they will help you no matter your beliefs...especially if you're in NY!!!
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 05:01 PM
Jon, I tried talking to you via personal message on facebook 2 months ago.I was reaching out to you and you became angry and deleted me. I was blunt, yes, but I was reaching out to you with love. You have to do anything you have to in order to survive. There are definitely things you refuse to accept doing, although you claim that is not true.
You are loved, whether you choose to believe so or not.
Go get help, please.
You are loved, whether you choose to believe so or not.
Go get help, please.
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 05:15 PM
Any problem in the world can be solved by dancing.
~James Brown
oh...and they won't try to convert you or expect anything from you in return. "their doors are always open"....
at least get yourself warmed up and dry and something in your belly before making any rash decision...facing the winter elements and not eating are clouding your judgement.
you have your whole life to end your life...don't rush it please
~James Brown
Go find a Methodist church...they will help you no matter your beliefs...especially if you're in NY!!!
oh...and they won't try to convert you or expect anything from you in return. "their doors are always open"....
at least get yourself warmed up and dry and something in your belly before making any rash decision...facing the winter elements and not eating are clouding your judgement.
you have your whole life to end your life...don't rush it please
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He saw the spinning lights he knew it was a sign....
Posted 26 December 2012 - 05:38 PM
I don't know you, but I have to say that your postings here are pathetic. All these people reach out to help every time, and you basically blow them all off so you can continue your little pity party.
Go get help, or don't, who cares. But, quit bringing all these good people down so that you can feel better about yourself.
Go get help, or don't, who cares. But, quit bringing all these good people down so that you can feel better about yourself.
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 06:57 PM
It may seem like there is nothing left, no hope for calm in your disquiet mind.
If you are truly brave enough to leap from a bridge then you do in fact have some strength and courage left.
Warm blood still courses through your veins. You can in fact muster the strength to let go of your old notions of yourself in the world, rather than letting go of this world itself.
Seek food and shelter.
If you are truly brave enough to leap from a bridge then you do in fact have some strength and courage left.
Warm blood still courses through your veins. You can in fact muster the strength to let go of your old notions of yourself in the world, rather than letting go of this world itself.
Seek food and shelter.
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Posted 26 December 2012 - 07:36 PM
I was suicidal for about 3-4 years. You just have to find one thing to keep living for. Just one little thing. We as humans are wired to survive not to give up. It's not easy trust me I know. Your soul wants you to survive and we want you to survive.
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Posted 27 December 2012 - 01:04 PM
Well said RyanI was suicidal for about 3-4 years. You just have to find one thing to keep living for. Just one little thing. We as humans are wired to survive not to give up. It's not easy trust me I know. Your soul wants you to survive and we want you to survive.
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Posted 27 December 2012 - 03:25 PM
Exactly Josh. Its selfish and histrionic.
The fact of the matter is that there IS help out there. However, a person has to be willing to accept the terms of that help and admit underlying problems and address them.
There are always options.
The fact of the matter is that there IS help out there. However, a person has to be willing to accept the terms of that help and admit underlying problems and address them.
There are always options.
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Posted 27 December 2012 - 03:34 PM
Compassion Is the Answer. ~ Stacy Jethroe
"Last night I dreamed I was born of heart and compassion.
I dreamed that each word that flowed from my lips was of perfection. I dreamed that instead of passing judgment, I sought to embrace and that the anger I felt at perceived injustices and the small-mindedness of others was turned into action and passion, instead of further evidence of how I was “better than.” I dreamed that my ego was in its proper place, that my lofty ideas and ideals floated into reality to help effect change, instead of becoming arrogant assumptions about why I was one of the few who knew better which path to take.
Until all of us understand the state of our existence, until each of us has a hand in the healing of the group, enlightenment will never be attained. As much as I recognize the perfection of my spirit, I am still but a human animal filled with human emotion and failings. Because I love the group, because I recognize that each of us is on a collective yet individual path, I embrace the failings of others so that I might understand. I seek to learn and to teach and to help raise the consciousness of the group, not just myself. If I seek enlightenment, attain self-discipline, speak of love and equality, yet judge my brethren for what I perceive as slacking or ignorance or incapability, I may as well resign myself to the lowly ranks which I assign for them.
Frustration will occur on every level. Doubt will show itself regarding the truth of spirit. You may give into ego wrapped in the guise of spirit because you believe your own press. Don’t. Don’t let your anger cloud the love you inherently understand to be at the core of every human. Each of us will stumble and fall and rise and soar. But, we are the group; we are part of the whole. Your divine nature is no better, no cleaner, no more precious or pure than any other member of the group. You may eat clean, you may clear your mind, you make seek to know yourself and your purpose, but if you judge those you perceive to be less than you? You are giving into your base nature, not the divine. And, guess what? It’s all right because you, too, are part of the group.
None of us—no matter how wise or aware or loving—is complete without the individuals with whom we share this journey. Yes, we must fight. Yes, we are each warriors of light and divinity. Anger has its place. Just don’t allow it to cloud your vision or the truth you already know. My most broken brother, my most unaware sister, the darkest part of myself are all still parts of the whole.
So, check yourself, oh spirit seeker. Even the lowest of us is born of divinity. If love is the message, then it is also the answer. Answer the call. Or accept that we will all fail together. Be kind. And preach to those who need to hear the strength of your insight. The members of the choir to whom you preach already feel your words. It is those on the outside of the temple who most need your love and clarity of vision. Face your anger so you might be the Angel of Light you truly are."
http://www.elephantj...-stacy-jethroe/
"Last night I dreamed I was born of heart and compassion.
I dreamed that each word that flowed from my lips was of perfection. I dreamed that instead of passing judgment, I sought to embrace and that the anger I felt at perceived injustices and the small-mindedness of others was turned into action and passion, instead of further evidence of how I was “better than.” I dreamed that my ego was in its proper place, that my lofty ideas and ideals floated into reality to help effect change, instead of becoming arrogant assumptions about why I was one of the few who knew better which path to take.
Until all of us understand the state of our existence, until each of us has a hand in the healing of the group, enlightenment will never be attained. As much as I recognize the perfection of my spirit, I am still but a human animal filled with human emotion and failings. Because I love the group, because I recognize that each of us is on a collective yet individual path, I embrace the failings of others so that I might understand. I seek to learn and to teach and to help raise the consciousness of the group, not just myself. If I seek enlightenment, attain self-discipline, speak of love and equality, yet judge my brethren for what I perceive as slacking or ignorance or incapability, I may as well resign myself to the lowly ranks which I assign for them.
Frustration will occur on every level. Doubt will show itself regarding the truth of spirit. You may give into ego wrapped in the guise of spirit because you believe your own press. Don’t. Don’t let your anger cloud the love you inherently understand to be at the core of every human. Each of us will stumble and fall and rise and soar. But, we are the group; we are part of the whole. Your divine nature is no better, no cleaner, no more precious or pure than any other member of the group. You may eat clean, you may clear your mind, you make seek to know yourself and your purpose, but if you judge those you perceive to be less than you? You are giving into your base nature, not the divine. And, guess what? It’s all right because you, too, are part of the group.
None of us—no matter how wise or aware or loving—is complete without the individuals with whom we share this journey. Yes, we must fight. Yes, we are each warriors of light and divinity. Anger has its place. Just don’t allow it to cloud your vision or the truth you already know. My most broken brother, my most unaware sister, the darkest part of myself are all still parts of the whole.
So, check yourself, oh spirit seeker. Even the lowest of us is born of divinity. If love is the message, then it is also the answer. Answer the call. Or accept that we will all fail together. Be kind. And preach to those who need to hear the strength of your insight. The members of the choir to whom you preach already feel your words. It is those on the outside of the temple who most need your love and clarity of vision. Face your anger so you might be the Angel of Light you truly are."
http://www.elephantj...-stacy-jethroe/
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Posted 27 December 2012 - 03:47 PM
TASB story time.
When I was in high school. I had a good friend who I played music with and generally "duded" around with. My other friend "Nate" and I knew our friend "Hans" was bi-polar and had a history of problems in the family with mental illness. From time to time, he would cruise over and just chill on the couch watching TV or what not when he was feeling "down".
Well, my friend Hans eventually found himself a girlfriend. She was a real nice girl too. Everything seemed to be going just great for Hans. One day following a good hang out and music playing session, Hans "went missing". Later his girlfriend found him in the woods with his head blown off. He had killed himself without any warning at all. Without any signs of reaching out for help beyond we already knew he had bad days from time to time.
We were really shaken up by this for a while. It was tough to go through. Especially for my friend Nate. He took it really, really hard. We often conversed about what we could have done or how we might have seen some signs of the him going over the edge.
The moral of this story: It appears to me, our friend in the OP is reaching out for help. I hope he finds some and some peace.
When I was in high school. I had a good friend who I played music with and generally "duded" around with. My other friend "Nate" and I knew our friend "Hans" was bi-polar and had a history of problems in the family with mental illness. From time to time, he would cruise over and just chill on the couch watching TV or what not when he was feeling "down".
Well, my friend Hans eventually found himself a girlfriend. She was a real nice girl too. Everything seemed to be going just great for Hans. One day following a good hang out and music playing session, Hans "went missing". Later his girlfriend found him in the woods with his head blown off. He had killed himself without any warning at all. Without any signs of reaching out for help beyond we already knew he had bad days from time to time.
We were really shaken up by this for a while. It was tough to go through. Especially for my friend Nate. He took it really, really hard. We often conversed about what we could have done or how we might have seen some signs of the him going over the edge.
The moral of this story: It appears to me, our friend in the OP is reaching out for help. I hope he finds some and some peace.
