I had to do some studen loan stuff today

[lost-in-boston]

and it was always something that my mom walked me through, explained, advised...
I had to call back twice bc I had questions, they got really impatient with me. This isn't something my dad could help with either, I can't believe how left alone in the middle of no where I felt just then.

Its been a while since I had a breakdown over missing her....
guess I was due
:cry:

[sums]

i'm sorry that happened to you tatum! :heart:

so very uncool and unprofessional that they got impatient with you.

i just did the whole student federal grant thing for forest. if you have any questions please feel free to drop me a line anytime. i'm really good with forms and instructions and all that bullshit ;)

[Erinisme]

I'm sorry. student loan crap is confusing. I picked up the phone just the other day to call her, and hten started crying

[TEO]

Awww.......:heart:

[Wende]

Awwww... I'm so sorry mama. :heart:

[KindGeeGirl]

:heart: :heart: :heart:

[lost-in-boston]

I'm sorry. student loan crap is confusing. I picked up the phone just the other day to call her, and hten started crying

her numbers are still in my phone, I try about every few months to delete them, can't do it. I went to text musicmomma the other day and scrolled past "mom" and broke down :undecided: Someday I want it to hurt less...I never "needed" my mother for a lot, but the things I needed her for become more and more apparent every day lately. There are recipes that I'll never get, there is financial stuff that she can't explain to me...
I just get so sick of realizing the harsh reality that its completely over. :plain:

[lost-in-boston]

oh and btw Summer, it was forbearance stuff. I'm behind in payments :rolleyes: joy joy, and am trying so hard to get back on track. They just talk so fast and so "matter of factly" and I'm like "ok so what does all that mean" :huh:
They seem to only be able to explain it to people who know, there's no way for them to understand how to break it down. I emailed Terra, and someone from work helped, and the two times I called back kinda filled in blanks.
Here's hoping they accept my 3 month period so I can catch up to my life.
:undecided:

[georgi]

:heart:

[SunshineDaydream]

:heartbounce: :heartbounce: :heartbounce:

[lost-in-boston]

Thanks ladies...
I guess sometimes ya just have to vomit your emotions all over a page so they don't fester.
I still can't listen to Mr. Jones by Ben Folds w/out tears :undecided:
but I'm better. :)