Reeling back in

[lost-in-boston]

So I've been realizing that the older I get the less I'm inclined to share.
The more I keep in, the more I trust less.
I've had enough of my sharing thrown back in my face through out my life and I feel its come time to just close off that piece of me where my entire heart life and soul are out on my sleeve.
There comes a time to protect yourself no?
I guess in so many senses its made me more vulnerable all over my universe, and I've been far too trustworthy and its really goten me stung over and over.

I've been cleaning shop too. Not owning other's problems, and issues, or letting opinions scorch my energy...
Maybe I'm just tired from fighting my way through life, and I feel there's got to be an easier way....

anyone else go through this or other big realizations after milestone bdays?? :huh:

[TEO]

All a part of conscious growth, especially as we become more aware that every thing we say, and every thought carries energy.

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[lost-in-boston]

All a part of conscious growth, especially as we become more aware that every thing we say, and every thought carries energy.

:heart:

exactly right there....
I'm realizing more and more that I'm just not allowing certain energy and negativity into my universe. Not that I'm allowing myself to be naive about it...but that I'm consciously shutting it out when I feel its necessary. I too am a vessel that fills and empties and I want to fill and empty w/ goodness, and love, and positive light, and not feed into the rest.

JT has mentioned "owning other's issues" and since I first heard it used, it just clicked w/ me...
I try too often to own other's issues. Feeling like if I take them on, it will lessen their load (not trying to sound like a martyr either). Clearly its silly to think that way from outside the box, but either way, everyone has to carry their own load, and all I can do is help them sort it from time to time.
This is huge for me. Just a complete different way of thinking. My mother raised me to own and be responsible for others, which is why I think she ended up bitter in life. I can't be that way. I dont want that for myself.
I love ME more. :heart:

[sarah b.]

good for you. learning to set personal boundaries with some folks - in practice, not just in theory - took me many years to really get done/down. It evolves.
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[Mama Kel]

good for you. learning to set personal boundaries with some folks - in practice, not just in theory - took me many years to really get done/down. It evolves.
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Same here. I've always had issues with personal boundaries (not having any) and it's sucked me dry over the years. A few years ago I decided to focus on myself & my family. It's still a work in progress but I'm happier for it.