I have the day off on tomorrow and I think i'm gonna spend it writing letters

[Erinisme]

well cleaning and what not as well,

but chatting with jami last night inspired me to write letters to some people that have fallen out of my life for various reasons. I need to be honest, I'm finally being honest with myself and how I feel about them, and I want them to know. I'm done waiting for them to apporach me.

I'm not going to be bitchy in the letters(a bad habit of mine), and not going to make the letters about them at all...more of letters about me, and hwere I am and how I handled things. Also gonna address things that have hurt be, and hope that they are receptive to it.

Just felt the need to share :heart:

[georgi]

:heart: Good luck, lady! :)

[Erinisme]

thanks, it's almost a year since my mom passed and I wish i had told her so many things i never did, i know she knows them but i wish i had told her.

so i'm gonna learn from my mistakes and let a few folks know how important the were/are to me.one of them is jail and could really use to hear that he did some good with his lfe...and he hurt me a bit too and he needs to know that, it'll explain a lot of how i behave towrads him

[Jersey Thug]

i love you, Erin. i have been doing this myself this week...a mental housekeeping, i guess?

the people i can't communicate with are the ones that continue to frustrate me and occupy entirely too much mental real estate. luckily they are in the vast minority :lol:

[Erinisme]

i love you, Erin. i have been doing this myself this week...a mental housekeeping, i guess?

the people i can't communicate with are the ones that continue to frustrate me and occupy entirely too much mental real estate. luckily they are in the vast minority :lol:

yup it's only two of them, both I hope come back into my life in a healthier capacity :heart:

[SunshineDaydream]

oh boy..really? :blush: im glad that somehow the current turmoil in my life is helping you get some stuff out. trust me, if there's one thing i learned in recent months about people and the way you feel about them, far better to be honest than keep it inside.

just please gimme a heads up if there's one coming my way, alright? :wink:

[Erinisme]

oh no, not you love, jeff and danielle...gotta get some shit out, and not be bitchy this time around :lol:

I saw some mirror issues with your current turmoil and jeffrey(fyi a non board related jeff) If i don't get it out, i might never have a healthy relationship :lol:

[Mama Kel]

Good luck. :heart: I've been wanting to do something similar with an old friend of mine for a while now.

[HoopsTer]

I just sent out a number of valentine cards to friends.
I love letter writing. :heart:

[lost-in-boston]

Its so hard to tell people how you really feel. :blush:
I'm so very guilty of this...even when they're right in front of you...
Its not usually till I snap that I become completely honest about how I've been feeling....all that pent up hurt and anger is like a bad cancer for your soul. :heart:

I too never shared A LOT about what happend through out my life w/ my mom and how she made me feel. She never heard MY side...speculated and felt awful about stuff, I definitely know this, but never really shared with her that if it wasn't for the turmoil in our relationship I might not be the strong person I am today.
Through ALL relationships (good and bad) comes growth. Remember that...sometimes you actually end up thanking people for hurting you.

I once wrote my high school sweetheart an eamil and thanked him for being strong enough to let me go when he did. I was so hurt/angry and heartbroken I didn't speak to him for years and years...After about 4 years he came home(he'd moved to LA), we bumped into each other at a bar, and as an old love, I realized that he wasn't the guy I once was head over heels for. But as a friend, he's fantastic. :heart: We have a really great long distance friendship ... he knows a part of my life that pretty much no one else in my world knows....its a special bond that I'm thankful for....
But we'd never have gotten here had he not broken my heart.
(sorry for the long story to make a quick point :blush: so shocking from me)

love you lady...strength to you during your period of "letting go" :heart: :heart:

[SunshineDaydream]

oh no, not you love, jeff and danielle...gotta get some shit out, and not be bitchy this time around :lol:

I saw some mirror issues with your current turmoil and jeffrey(fyi a non board related jeff) If i don't get it out, i might never have a healthy relationship :lol:

Well thank goodness for that..I was sweating for a sec :funny1:

Getting it out is definitely the 1st step to moving on, if thats what needs to happen. Step 2 is acceptance of whatever comes of the feelings-sharing...and I wish you nothing but smooth sailing with their reactions, because they both need to hear what you have to say.

My boat's still taking on water :undecided: but at least I've got some amazing friends well-equipped with lifeboats of their own to help get me through :heart:

And Erin, you do too :heartflag: